What does tired feel like to an average person? I expect, body aching, longing for a massage at massage envy, dark circles masked with Revlon under eye concealer, plus moody behavior which requires a caffeine boost at Starbucks. Eventually, all leading to sudden desire to collapse.
We surpassed those average tired individuals a long time ago. We are in a completely different realm of tired, we are mommy tired.
I kindly told my husband to watch the kids for a few minutes, claiming that I had to go to the bathroom. Luckily, my husband understands that when I say “I have to go to the bathroom” those words carry a different meaning. I feel ashamed to say them outloud. Truth-“I have reached my limit, I need a break, and the kids are driving me mad”.
I hope that I can trust all Moms to keep this secret.
I walked to the bathroom for my “break” as if stepping into my secret spa. Sometimes a Mom needs a few minutes to herself to unwind and think in silence. A few minutes quickly lengthened to an hour, as I plummeted to the floor. I was sound asleep on the toilet, while gripping my cherished unread Self magazine. I was in such a deep sleep that I felt rejuvenated when I woke up.
I didn’t get a massage or enjoy a beach vacation. I was dreaming on the comfort of my toilet. Is that sad or pathetic? Is it true that probably all mothers have experienced this form of tired?
It was beyond a doubt a good nap! Although, as I plummeted to the floor I considered that having a secret as simple as going to the bathroom makes me a liar. If I am tired, I should embrace the truth and not feel like I have to tell a white lie. I should not be embarrassed or feel like I am not a good Mom just because I am tired.
I try not to hide under my blanket for a few extra minutes anymore or tell white lies to get my quiet time. I let people see the truth and communicate the truth.
I respect all mothers for their endurance and lack of sleep. We are in a different realm of tired. Embrace the truth and get the rest that you deserve. Mommy Tired!